Diddy tells Essence magazine in the December issue:"I know she deserves to get married, but I'm just not ready."

Wow after several years together

Kim Porter says: (Of Diddy's connection to Lopez) "That relationship wasn't real. The world just saw the bright lights and the camera. But I knew what was really going on. He was still in love with me."

It was real enough. Did n't he write a couple of songs about how hurt he was about their breakup??

"But as long as he makes us feel like we're a family, I'm fine." And, she says, "There'll be one day when he won't be working so hard, (and) then we have a lifetime. … I'm not a needy person. If I were, I'd probably be somewhere pulling out my hair right now"

AKA I'm just gone wait and wait and wait............